Never an Answer
Losing a best friend can be really hard at times. Not in the way of moving away or passing away, just fading away and not being the same friends as in the past. My friend Melissa was truly my best friend for the longest time and I could tell her absolutely anything. Then about the end of sophomore year of high school, I started to see a shift in our relationship. The big question I have is what did I do to make my best friend in the entire world start to fade away for me.
I could wish for a lot of other things in this world that many other people might see the necessity to have, but my best friend is the most important to me. She is like another sister to me. Ever since the 6th grade when we sat next to each other in home room we have been best friends. We told each other everything on our minds just as best friends would do. We hung out almost every day, it was almost like we had something special.
Starting in 6th grade, Melissa and I started our everlasting friendship. We always got along and had a good time together, talking all the time and basically just being best friends. Going over to her house to hang out with all our friends was really special for some reason. With being best friends for so many years, spending all this time together, I picked up on some of her ways. We knew each other like the back of our hands. I didn’t understand how she got such good grades and still had time to hang out and do all the activities, clubs, and sports she did. That was remarkable to me, and still is. With her on the softball team and me on the baseball team, we attended each other’s games whenever it was possible. That was like our little tradition. Talking and texting every day for five years straight, there were a lot of conversing. Then one day sophomore year I didn’t get a text that day. I know that sounds ridiculous freaking out about one text, but it was an everyday thing. I let it go, no big deal at the time. We still saw each every day at school but I had a funny feeling that things were starting to change. I didn’t understand why or what I did to cause this weird stage. I didn’t want to bring it up either because that’s the one thing we don’t like talking about, our relationship. I think we both felt awkward because we were “best friends” but we still liked each other. Liking each other and having 3relationship was nowhere near worth losing the friendship, and we both knew that. It was very confusing and sometimes even made me really sad. Her friendship meant the most to me and I didn’t understand why something like that would fade away. Being fine with the fact that I just saw her in school was the path I took. This meant more time to hang out with my friends, which I don’t know if that was a good thing.
Eventually after a while of not talking, she got a boyfriend. I didn’t care too much, but putting two and two together it seemed the reason for her fading away was because of him. That really made me mad because he just separated my best friend and me. That is at least what I thinking, and that was not okay with me. Putting on an act for a long time to pretend that I was okay and us not talking was okay with me as well; I seemed to care less and less as their relationship went on. Letting it go and hanging out with everyone else was fine with me. I still had all my other friends. Having more fun and not caring about school as much is what seemed to be the case.
My friends all through school meant the most to me, well at least after Melissa found her boyfriend . Since I didn’t like being home as much because all of the commotion and distractions there, I chose to be with my friends more. Hanging out every day with the guys, even when there was nothing to do, was what we did. None of my friends really cared to try in school and the sad thing is I am just starting to realize this now. It is hard to give a lot of effort when all your friends have the same mindset as you. It wasn’t “cool” to