College Admissions Essay: Standing On A 50 Foot Cliff

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I’m not suicidal, yet here I was standing on the edge of a 50 foot cliff. The wind blew hard against my back like it was trying to push me off the edge. I took a deep breath in, breathing in the adrenaline, and the rushing river below me. I knew it was safe, yet I had a billion doubts swarming around in my brain. I whispered “Be not afraid” and remembered why I was standing on the cliff in the first place. This gave me the surge of courage I needed. I remembered the reservations I had freshman year and how it took over my life. I also remembered the promise I made to myself. I promised myself I would never let my doubts get in the way of my dreams ever again. So I jumped. My heart burst as I sailed through the air. I plunged into the river and swam up towards the light. I …show more content…
Laughing because I had ignored my doubts and took a leap of faith. The whole reason I was standing on this cliff was because of my freshman year. The first week of my freshman year was horrible, the worst week of my life. I was so anxious that I wasn’t going to do everything perfect that I cracked. I was so stressed out people wouldn’t like me, I would throw up so I didn’t have to go. When I did get to school, I was a wreck, I was so nervous I would spend my day hiding in the bathroom crying. This feeling of doom didn’t end when I got home. Every time I began to calm down the thought of having to go to school the next day brought back the hysterics. My mom took me to a therapist so I could talk about my “problems”. I had plenty of friends in school, I got respectable grades, and was close to my family, and yet the thought of school made me panic. Weeks had gone by without any change, I wasn’t eating and my grades were dropping. The happy girl I used to be disappeared, so my mom called the doctor. The doctor diagnosed me with social anxiety. I assumed the doctor was joking, I was 14 and just now diagnosed? I was always surrounded by my friends before and they never