Intuitive-Projective Faith

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Conflict was not handled well in our family. There was usually a lot of yelling. My dad was abusive towards my mom, probably because of the alcohol abuse. At a young age, I did not realize what was happening. It was all kept behind closed doors. I would wake up in the morning and sometimes find my mom in my bed with me. I did not realize then that my dad would not let her sleep, but she knew he would not harm her with me around. When my brothers and I misbehaved, we were spanked. Conflict among siblings usually involved my older brother. He held all the cards, and for some reason, my younger brother and I cowered under him. Tyrone was in control, not because my parents put him in charge, but by his domineering nature. Maybe Tyrone emulated …show more content…
They were prayers that a child could understand, but we were taught to say them before every meal, and before bed. Stage one, which is Intuitive-Projective Faith was almost non-existent for me. We never attended church as a family at this stage in my life, however, were taught about God. Stage two, Mythic-Literal Faith, late in this stage, I began to attend church regularly with my best friend, Wendy. I prayed more serious prayers, but did not have the full understanding of Jesus and God. Stage three, Synthetic-Conventional Faith is described as claiming “faith as their own instead of just being what their family does” (Unitarian Universalist Association, 2017). It was in this stage that I discovered Christ for myself and accepted Him as my personal Savior. Stage four, Individuative-Reflective Faith is the stage where the real questions begin to surface. I do not know that I had questions, but I did fall away from God during this age period. I felt that I was an adult, I was free, I was making my own way, and I could do whatever I wanted to do. My walk and faith in God was almost non-existent. Stage five, Conjunctive Faith is where I am now. This stage is characterized by “ the strong need for individual self-reflection giving way to a sense of the importance of… faith development” (Unitarian Universalist Association, 2017). I realize some questions can only be …show more content…
I was about fourteen. That, of course, had many trajectories, God changing my heart and opening my eyes to who He is before I could accept His gift of eternal life. My life changed to be more like Christ. I was a new person and my behavior reflected that change. My next transition was graduating high school. I was now considered an adult, and I was unprepared. So, I joined the Army, which was my next transition. Several trajectories led me to that decision. A physically abusive boyfriend, drug and alcohol abuse, and an empty future. My turning point was God’s voice telling me it is time for a change. My next transition was getting married, and quickly becoming parents. The next life event was the death of my younger brother. Years later, I accepted Christ, once again, into my life and allowed Him to be the source of my faith. That turning point led us to find a church and we attended regularly as a family. It was a beautiful time. After more years, my next transition was the high school graduation of our children and their departure to college. That was a serious transition for me. The empty home was difficult for the first several months. I cried a lot. However, once I realized how free my husband and I were, I gradually accepted our new position in life. Then came the next life event, my retirement from the Army. A happy time. I was slightly worried about finding other employment, but my faith