Old Man Monologue

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Do I have to wake up? Can’t I just stay in bed? I want to hide away from all the pain that is outside my door waiting for me. Everyone knows. It’s all his fault, you see I knew that he couldn't be trusted. I just fell for him… He had some sort of charm to his personality. He could have handled it better. Brad was just in it for the attention. I knew he never really loved me. I feel like an idiot and now it has ended in me hiding from society. What is my family going to say? Am I even going to have a family after today? My grandmother will probably have a heart-attack. My mother, God knows how she will react. She might send me to a gay rehabilitation camp… If those exist. My dad really is the wild card here. He could make my life harder than it needs to …show more content…
He needed a ‘distraction’. Wanted to use her for some fun. You know he cheated on her. He kept coming back every time. Everyday was a different story. “I love you” he would say “…but I don’t know what to do about Sophia” every single time. It was basically a cycle where we would break-up then make-up, in the end I would get clobbered. Abandoned, left with a broken heart but this time it has gone too far. He had broken up with me for the 100th time and guess what? He came crawling back again. We were left alone for a couple of minutes and there was no hesitation. He leant in and kissed me. He just went straight in for it. I kissed back, obviously I was still hung up on him. I pulled away because I didn’t want to deal with the guilt that would follow. I asked him what he was going to do about Sophia. He just sat there with a blank face. Obviously thinking of something to say that wouldn't hurt my feelings. He was certainly unsuccessful. He replied with “I don’t know, Maybe… Well I think I should stay with her… But I mean you know how I feel about you” I guess I was so in the moment that I completely forgot about that fact that he would be cheating on her. I just wanted to feel the way I used