A month before i lost someone i really cared about my pawpaw was in the hospital he had cancer on his stomach and he was stubborn and waited till the last minute to get help it didn't work. It was May 23. 4 in the morning i was asleep and my grandmother called the house phone crying i started screaming because i knew something happen she didn't even have to tell me i just new. I fell on the floor crying i couldn't believe he was gone. I just couldn't i didn't know what to do i just sit there and cried. I told my best friend and she made me still come to school. When he left i felt like i was nothing but my friends said i will be ok that he is in a good place but how do i know that he is in a better place. When my cousin found out he tried to…show more content… I am depressed now because i am holding all my feelings and they're turning to anger now and it's like i am not myself without him. He was my best friend. He was the only one that understand me. He new something was wrong when my mom didn’t. I pushed my family away i pushed everyone away because my family act like everything was ok when it wasn’t and it never will be. I miss him every day of my life every minute i want to cry and the song that they plade at the funeral all it does is come on the radio and it kills me but i can't cry because there are little kids in the car. I keep it in and then i let it out at home. I was ready to give up but my granny needed me and so i have to be strong and i don't think i can be anymore when he left so did my best friend and now i feel like i will never see him again. He got me out of a lot of trouble he understand that i would put people above me he was there when i was born he was the first person to hold me besides my mom and dad he was my best friend and i never thought i would lose him i really thought he would live forever or at least until i died i never thought that my life would suck so bad and now it is a mess. I really just want to give
