Personal Narrative: Exposure To Addiction

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Exposure to addiction throughout my childhood had a tremendous effect on my development. As a young girl I battled with the shame of my mother’s habitual narcotic abuse. No words could ever express the wickedness I dealt with on a daily basis and heavy burdens I carried on my shoulders at such an early age. Growing up, I experienced embarrassment, fear, and neglect as a result of chronic drug use in my family. As early as I can remember, I was ashamed of my mother’s constant substance abuse. I had to avoid having friends and company come over to my house due to my mother's behavior. Her slurred vision and words made it almost impossible not to notice that she was acting strange. "What is wrong with your mom?" and "Are you sure yur mom is okay?" were questions often asked. Also, I hated going out with her in public. She would get so loud and vulgar when things did not go her way. One time, specifically, we were at a grocery store and she became angry at me for no reason. She began to yell at me in front of everyone in the store. I was so humiliated. It made me feel so small, as if I was a grain of sand. These situations happened quite often, until one day it went too far and she became aggressive …show more content…
I was rejected and alone. I knew that her addiction came before me and my needs. It is often said that an addict is going to get what an addict wants and I lived to see that it is true. I never escaped the feeling of being alone. I felt as if I was constantly getting bullied at home and I could never escape it. I felt as if there was an empty place in my heart that could never seem to get filled. I felt like I was missing prices of life and how to be happy, but not really being sure on how to fix it. I felt like I always had to stand guard all, because I could not trust anyone and I did not know anyone's real intentions. Even though I had to go through all the hardships of being rejected by my parent, it taught me to be independent and