In the text Useless Boys by Barry Dempster, the author states his deep desire to control his future based on how he didn’t want to turn out like his father, forever living paycheque by paycheque. In human nature it’s more than comforting to have the power to control how your life ends up being, otherwise you can spiral into a dark place. By the authors standards, he failed at the path he dreamed he would end up on as he ended up living a boring life same as his father. From my early childhood up to recently, I lived in a home where silence was a rarity usually carried in strained periods. Long term effects of carrying such bitterness in ones soul can often take happiness with it. I was determined to do anything it took to get better before it got worse. No one wants to live with burdens on their shoulders with nothing to…show more content… It was new, and frankly, it was scary. I hated how it stuck to me I could try to scrape it off or wash it off as much as I wanted, but it always stayed, seeping into my skin. At that point, I was determined to get rid of it I couldn’t stand it being there any longer, so I went to my parents about it. They were the only ones I wanted to talk to. I didn’t go into any huge details I wasn’t ready to yet. My mother didn’t have any words to put in, she was usually silent. My father on the other hand told me everything he had to say about it, trying to analyze what he thought was many levels of drivel. I wasn’t allowed to have a mental illness, I was too young, too much, not truthful, not like him. Not him, I wasn’t him that was the issue yet it was the solution too. Only the man of the house was allowed to have feelings, it let him express how continuously disappointed he was, how I could do better, be less of a failure. Henceforth I made it my mission not to be like him, spite the very thing he strives off
