3:45 am. Alex could hear every beat of his own heart. John was finally asleep. This is third night in a row John has fallen asleep crying, and Alex is starting to worry. How do you bring that up? "Babe, I noticed you seem to crying yourself to sleep lately. Why's that?". That seems entirely too insensitive. He strokes John's curly hair, and chastises himself for wishing someone's else's curly hair was here too. John would never understand how he felt about him. Thomas. Thomas. Thomas Jefferson. His voice, deep and marvelous, only touching the beginnings of …show more content…
I love Thomas. I love him. We haven't done anything, and hell, he doesn't even know! i'm so confused because I haven't lost feelings for you at all and I still love you so much and Eliza says that this can be normal and that I might just be polyamorous, like Maria is, but I don't know I've never been in love with multiple people at the same time before and..." Alex continues talking but all John feels is guilt and all he can hear is a voice nagging him, you love thomas too, you have to tell him, you love thomas too, you have to tell him and it won't shut up and John is panicking and Alex still hasn't shut up so John blurts, "I love him too..." It stops Alex dead in his tracks and he has no idea what to