What Does Fitting In Mean To Me Essay

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I, Jennifer Elizabeth Jordan, am a 17 year old girl who is looking to find the bigger picture. I am not used to having a loving and happy community around me. What I am used to is the strong pressure to be uniform with everyone around you, judgement, and the condemnation of having an opinion contrary to the popular beliefs. Whitworth is the perfect school to allow me to connect my mind and heart as well as allowing me to grow my faith without the social pressures of “fitting-in.” In the past four years, my life has been flipped, tested, and redefined. If I may be so bold to say, I truly believe that my life was changed for the better once I was put through the wringer that is high school.
As a freshman, I was motivated to get straight A's and become a valedictorian. However, when I got my first B in Biology second semester my world came crashing down around me. In my family, I am expected to be the academic protégé of the family and I was scared for them to find out I could not live up to expectations. As a sophomore, I became determined to become salutatorian, but once again I could not achieve what I had thought to be my purpose. At the end of the year, something clicked inside of me telling
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For too long I have let my depression take control of me, but from here on out I am in control. I need to accept the bad things that happen in my life because every chip that I endure makes me who I am today. I cannot remember my childhood, and although people tell me it wasn't good I wish I would stop burying my memories. I know now that everything has a purpose and happens for a specific reason. I feel it is crucial to my future that I stop cherry picking the memories I chose to accept that make me who I am. Perhaps what I feel is the most essential to my life, is my closed door policy. It is time I let people into my life and share with them the real me so I don’t forget who I am with all those years of