Peru but it never crossed my mind it was going to turn the way it did. My dad called me to let me know he bought me a two-way ticket, if I didn’t like it i could just go back but i would be wasting probably the best opportunity I was going to have in my life;; I had just 3 weeks before it was my time to leave, leave my family, my friends, my country, my life. I was really scared. I’ve been living here for the past year and a half and it’s been quite a ride, i would say the first 6 months were definitely the craziest ones for me in an emotional level.
Although it’s been hard, thanks to that I’ve grown as a person and learned so much, I’m a better version of myself now.
The first few days I was really excited, looking forward to all the things that i had to do like look for colleges, get a job, find fun things to do, meet new people, etc. All that went away really fast, i mean, i still tried to do all those things but i wasn’t feeling excited about anything anymore.
I cried myself to sleep every day for at least one month after the first week of being here. I wouldn't get out of room for long periods of time, it was just me doing nothing. I just wasn’t in the mood to be around people. I was sad and depressed and I didn’t want to tell anyone about it, I didn’t want anyone to feel bad for me or think i wasn’t going to last long here, i didn’t want them to think i was weak. My mom would ask me every day when we were talking on the phone: “How are you? Is everything okay?” “Yes mom, everything is good!” I couldn’t just tell her it wasn’t okay, I didn’t want her to worry about me for something
I thought it was stupid.
“How are you? Is everything okay?” she asked me again one day. After a few seconds I started sobbing, I couldn’t do it anymore, I just couldn’t hide how I was feeling for longer. She cried with me.
“I’m sorry, I just… I don’t know, I just miss you guys so much. I feel like empty”
Most of my friends stopped talking to me after a while, I don’t know if it was because they forgot about me, or because they were busy and had stuff to do, maybe it was because they never really cared. I don’t really know. From all that people who told me that i…