Acting Self Reflection

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I have always wanted to join an acting class. I was always told that I was just dramatic enough to be an actress. Although I never thought seriously of pursuing an acting career I wanted to discover what being an actress was like. I was curious about the process of turning into another human being full of their own complexities and emotions. Therefore, when I saw that Bellarmine offered the opportunity I was eager to take it. Since the first class, I have thoroughly enjoyed the acting process and myself. Through my participation I have discovered new things about myself as an actress. I have achieved at comfortability of being a part of collective, understanding my voice, memorizing my lines, and maintaining enthusiasm. Among some of these …show more content…
Using action words and moving with purpose as I talked helped me remember my lines. However, I still have terrible fear of stage fright. I have yet to actually perform my monologue in front of anyone for fear that I will forget my lines. I know that this is stereotypical fear I understand that I am allowing my nervousness to affect my productivity and effectiveness in my performance. I think I may overcome this fault when I perform for the first time ever in front of my ensemble. I may forget my lines and I may not. Nonetheless, I believe that taking that first step and letting the chips fall where they may will help me. After this performance I must begin to actively seek an audience no matter how nervous I am. I will designate someone from the ensemble to be my quiet audience member and after performing in front of that person I will move to practice in front of loved ones. On a more personal level, I need to develop a stage presence and confidence. I believe this can only be accomplished by being fully immersed in my character as soon as I begin acting so that I will not become self-conscious of the audience looking at me. When I achieve this immersion, my brain will no longer process the audience judging Shalonté but observing the character that I chose to become. In class we discussed that immersion involves filling in the blanks with personal interpretation. Creating and believing my characters the backstory, scene, and time in my heart is essential in my transformation of self-doubt and