Flipping My Father

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Skimming the first of Sanders two essays paints a very specific picture for the reader as it describes Sanders’ father as a caring, loving, human who places large amounts of sentimental value on his family and the hard work he does everyday. The reader thus creates a predetermined notion on how Sanders’ views his own father, with respect and reverence. This however gets completely turned on its head once the reader begins the second essay as they quickly realize the grief Sanders felt directly after his fathers death probably attributed towards the “sugar coating” of his memories as now an entirely new side of his father is revealed. The side where his father’s alcoholism heavily impacts each and everyone in the household. Whether its the loving, …show more content…
Sanders starts the essay jumping right into the new depressing subject matter noting how when “Left alone, [his] father prowls the house…I lie there hating him, loving him, fearing him, knowing I have failed him…He would not hide the green bottles in his toolbox…would not fall asleep in the daylight…would not drink himself to death, if only I was perfect” (Influence 135). Sanders’ first use of asyndeton places an emphasis on his feelings towards his father and it used to show that even though the list has only a few of his feelings, the list is actually a lot longer that. Sanders also uses asyndeton in the same excerpt but instead at the end. This time he uses it to emphasize what he thinks his father wouldn’t do if he was a perfect child, and once again this list seems to go on and on. Not only serving as a jarring and harsh opening to a drastically different essay than the first, the excerpt also instills a depressed, solemn tone that will continue for the remainder of the text. Sanders also recalls once when he “[slipped] into the garage or barn to see [his] father tipping back a flat green bottle of wine…and then when his bloodshot gaze bumping into [him], [he] stashes