Essay on three minute gospel

Submitted By Colin-May
Words: 513
Pages: 3

I wanted to take the time to tell you who Jesus is to me. He has impacted my life in such a positive way, and there is no way I would be the man I am today without my relationship with Christ. I grew up in a Catholic family, went to church every Sunday, said grace at every meal, and was taught that it was important to live a "good life" so that on judgment day, Christ would look on me with pity. This was what I thought a relationship with Christ was supposed to be like; I thought that in order to achieve salvation that I had to do my best to be a good "Catholic/Christian". To me, Christ was a person to be feared and I felt like worshiping Him was a chore that I "had" to do. I would not say that I ever had relationship with Christ even though I went to Catholic school for just that purpose. Throughout much of grammar and some of high school I was bullied and "left out" of social gatherings and events. I felt like an outcast, unloved and unwanted. As a result, my self-esteem took a hit, and I started calling myself names like loser, failure, etc. Due to these negative self-concepts, I felt that I needed to be punished, and that I was not good enough the way that I was made (physically, relationally, intellectually, etc.) In response to my depression and negative self-talk, I started binging/purging and purposely hurting myself. During this time, my only focus was on myself and my body. I thought in order to be happy, I had to look a certain way, act a certain way, and be a certain way. I was none of these and I used my eating disorder, self-injurious behavior, and eventually drinking to deal with the anxiety of being alone and feeling like I was worthless. This